I am in Singapore already T_T Returned again for the second time

Yesterday I chat with my friend who also doing apprenticeship in Singapore. She was totally mad at me. Made me hontou ni bikkuri >_<

She mentioned about going to Germany. She said if I told her that I am going to do my apprenticeship in Indonesia, she might probably in Germany right now because all of her friends are there. Her friends are also my friends too, we're always together in our university. It means at that time she didn't consider me as her friend T_T

I know that I am the one who is bad, I didn't try so hard to find a company back then and then went home leaving her alone. But actually I really didn't mean to leave her alone, I know that she is staying with her friends who I don't even know who they are. And it's impossible for 3 person to stay in a small room. Last night I cried, fortunately my cousin went to her friend's house, so I can relief a little bit even though I still feel guilty even though she already forgave me. Because of me she didn't go to germany. She said that she choosed Singapore because I also said so T_T
I am the one who is responsible for this, I am the one who made her didn't go to Germany. I am the one who are bad... When I am thinking about what she said, it still make me wanna cry, I hope I don't cry a lot, it's not good since I will start working on Monday...

I also want to say thank you to Wawa and Minori for Shou's super duper prince chraming version picture n_n It's really cheer me up..