Today I went home a little bit late. My car was borrowed so I couldn't go home earlier. Fortunately tomorrow is holiday n_n but still don't know whether tomorrow will go to sensei's place or not.. So tiredddd.....

I think it's better for me not to go and meet sensei's other guests. I don't want to have this kind of feeling again just like after I met this guy last Sunday... Sooo terrible... I feel that my mind is so weird and there also a very big emptiness in myself. Watashi wa hontou ni baka na hito, kare ha jiisan desu kara.... T-T

Really don't understand what is happening and just see what will happen later when he return from his surfing activity... Deng... Ima wa tottemo sabishii desu....